my God

a long time ago, i discovered God.

probably when i was 12 or 11.

i can't really remember how i became a Christian. i do remember sitting in for a lot of bible study sessions that made me very uncomfortable. i remember being moved to tears and confessing my sins to the Almighty One. i remember going to church and falling asleep. i remember volunteering as a member in Youth For Christ. i remember walking the streets and sharing the Good News. i remember trying to convince my family that God was the only way. i remember being self-righteous telling off my friend, who had a drinking problem at age 14, and saying to him, "i won't judge you. but what would God think?" i remember one bible study when a door slammed shut from the wind and i retorted, "niaaaah.... sheeeaaddduup!" like Daffy Duck and all the kids laughed but the bible study teacher said to me, "now, as a Christian, you don't say things like that. its very rude." i remember praying to God during a softball game, "please God, let us win. if we win, i'll never ask anything of you ever again." we did win, and i did ask again. i remember being close to a girl, and her friend said to me, "if only you were Catholic."

who is this being that created me and is responsible for everything in my life, before and after i met Him?

whether He's real or not, and as much as i'm often inclined to deny Him, discovering God has been important to me.

yeeesh.
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"When you do things right, people won't be sure you've done anything at all." - 'God', Futurama

i am rock

proudly, the rock sits.

'the stillness of my form more readily accentuates my rough, yet stout and unwavering stature. yes, i am very much unlike the fallen leaf, who so readily commits himself to the wind. just as i am the concrete opposite of the blade of grass that bends to every invisible force that would choose to move it. firmly here i stand, set in my way, confident and without even the minutest of doubt. i... am rock.'

and so the rock continues to sit in its quiet dignity, just as it always had.



oblivious, that for a rock, it is most talkative.

nothing to report

yup.

absolutely nothing.

its quite sad really.



hmm.

Mr Children - Shirushi

because youtube won't let me upload it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkICF3BEt6Y&mode=related&search=