withdrawal symptoms

last night i went jogging.

needed to clear my head (and make myself feel like its helping my girth).

the emptiness is back.

only this time i know why its there.

work takes my mind off it. playing games.. not so much.
you know its really bad when the one thing you thought you liked to do isn't helping the situation at all.

i have a real complicated, yet very simple, problem.
and with each mistake i make it becomes easier to analyze, but more difficult to resolve.

i am stubborn, scared and confused.
with time this feeling will go away.
not resolved mind you, but at least it goes away.

until i decide i need to jog again.

wish i didn't cramp up so fast though... will probably need a couple more minutes the next time.

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on a different note, Devil's Playground (my second directorial work), will be screening on First Takes at Substation tonight.
they better like it.. or else!!!